"If you knew how systematically you had been poisoned, you'd have seen yourself in a whole new light"

It is your responsibility, but it's not your fault.

Yesterday we went to the Old Stone Fort state park near Manchester, Tennessee to meet a couple of friends, one of whom lives in Hawaii. The Old Stone Fort is a sacred Native American site that is almost completely encircled by the Duck River. The “fort” — which is actually thought to be an earthworks used for ceremonies or rituals, and not for military defense purposes — sits in a beautiful 40-acre meadow of wildflowers. Around the meadow runs the river, green and placid and punctuated with a series of mellow, beautiful waterfalls of varying heights and widths.

It’s a magical place and the weather was perfect. The sky was blue with big white fluffy clouds, the temperatures hovered around a pleasant 80 degrees, and it wasn’t too humid, especially for late August in Tennessee.

We enjoyed a lovely afternoon hiking along the river, walking around the meadow, and going swimming in a gorgeous deep swimming hole Tatiana and I have visited a couple times before. The swimming hole starts beneath Little Falls on the Little Duck River. It’s not far from the visitor center and trailhead but never seems to be overrun with people.

We had such a lovely time and it was such a beautiful day and we felt so blessed to pass the time and enjoy the natural beauty with two spiritual people who, like us, occupy some middle zone (or, perhaps, some transcendental plane?) between the designated camps of reactionary far-right extremists and libtard woke cultists.

Meaning: we could just talk about our lives and share our thoughts without the need for continual self-monitoring or hyper-vigilance. Just have conversations and enjoy the exchange of thoughts and ideas and experiences without worrying we’d say something that would trigger someone’s programming and cause them to erupt, shut down, or run away.

It was beautiful.

This morning I woke to a similar blue sky. After weeks of oppressive heat and humidity, the weather suddenly turned fall-like a couple days ago and it was chilly enough outside that I put on long pants and a flannel shirt for my morning walk down to the garden with the dog.

We live at the top of a ridge in the woods and we’re surrounded by enough trees that I often can’t get a sense of what’s happening in the sky until I make it down the hill to the garden and farm part of the property. Which is still surrounded by trees, but has a much larger cleared area than where our little cabin sits.

By the time I reached the garden, I could see that the chemtrail artists were getting back to work. I have been doing an admirable job at ignoring the chemtrails since I decided to focus on holding more positive thoughts in mind earlier this year. I have done everything I can within my budgets of time, money, and energy to grid out the property with orgone earth pipes and HHGs (holy hand grenades) and I’ve got my chem-buster polished up and working up by the cabin.

Maybe it was the contrast to yesterday’s beautiful, natural-looking sky and clean weather that got me noticing the geoengineering activity today. By mid-afternoon, when I drove Big Red over to the Mennonite lumberyard to pick up a 12-inch rafter square and some wood glue so I can get started installing the floor in our studio, I noticed the carpet of artificially-created cloud covering half of the sky. And by this evening when Kobi and I took our evening walk to the garden, the entire sky was covered in an ugly gray haze. The sun was obscured, everything felt still and close. No birds were singing, but for a few crows cawing out a warning. A few frogs were trading songs, but the eerie stillness made a stark contrast to the morning sunshine when the sparrows and warblers were singing and darting about.

It got me thinking about a conversation we had with our friends yesterday. After hiking and swimming, we drove down to the park’s picnic area, a big open glen under a canopy of oak and American beech trees. Tatiana had packed a vast assortment of treats and snacks — fresh raspberries and blueberries, cheese, crackers, and sweet potato chips, olives, cucumbers, apple slices, and more.

As we were choosing our snacks, the conversation turned to food sensitivities and dietary restrictions.

I would guess that about 90 percent of the clients I work with as an astrologer or coach struggle with some sort of autoimmune condition. Most of the clients I attract are empaths, so that probably has something to do with it. But it got me thinking about my own struggles with digestive issues, allergies, and other “autoimmune” type symptoms and about just how endemic these conditions are in our society.

I used to blame — and shame — myself for my health challenges. Or, to be more precise, I used to run self-blaming and self-shaming programs in my mind without challenging them or questioning them.

“If only I hadn’t been a heavy drinker for the first 12 years of my adult life…”

“Well, I smoked a lot of cigarettes when I was younger…”

I hear it from friends and clients all the time. It’s not always an explicit admission of guilt — “It’s my fault I’m overweight” or “Well, I deserve to suffer from crippling joint pain because I didn’t take good enough care of myself” — but discussions about health and wellbeing are often laced with an underlying current of self-blame or of shame. Even if it’s not explicitly stated, there is often an unspoken energy that says, “It’s my fault that I’m sick, or in chronic pain, or have no energy.”

And look — most of us can benefit from really paying attention to our bodies and loving and nourishing these beautiful soul vehicles that allow us to experience and enjoy the richness of life on Earth.

I still catch those programs running in my subconscious mind sometimes. But I want to share a revelation with you that struck me a few years ago:

It’s not my fault.

I have been poisoned since the moment I was born. Consistently, and on all levels — physical, mental, emotional, and spiritual.

It’s fucking totally amazing that I am as healthy and vibrant as I am, considering everything I have been subjected to since I was borne into this realm.

Before I go further, let me explain why I believe this perspective is important, even life-changing:

Accepting the blame for things that were done to you that were beyond your control is not in alignment with Natural Law. Victim-shaming yourself is not resonant with the nature of the Universe, which is Love.

Withdrawing your consent to be poisoned and withdrawing your agreement that you are to blame for your poisoning is an act of power that realigns you with Creator and Creation.

We need to take responsibility for our health and for our bodies and minds. I did drink and smoke way too much when I was younger, so I have chosen to eat as healthily as possible for the last 20 years. I did a lot of meditation to deprogram from all of the negative mental information I willingly ingested and to empower my brain to send healing instructions throughout all of my bodily systems.

And…

The truth about the world system

You see —

Nearly every institutional-authority structure in our society is geared towards inculcating us with the spirit of fear and brainwashing us into lifelong habits of self-loathing.

Religion teaches us that we are sinful or defective creatures who must beg and plead with some distant all-powerful God for mercy and — maybe — a few Divine scraps of abundance as we travel through this vale of tears. Maybe in the next world we’ll know joy, peace, and bliss, but we sorry losers should be grateful for the scraps while we’re here.

School teaches us to abdicate our inner authority, distrust and ultimately turn our backs on our imagination, and think not our own thoughts, but the thoughts of the Machine. It teaches us to sit still, shut up, and curry favor with the bigger, stronger, louder humans or face life as an outcast.

The media teaches us that we are all shameful fuckups who deserve to be laughed at (sitcoms, movie comedies, commercial advertisements) and who can only avoid the fate of living in a permanent state of humiliation and shame by spending our time, energy, attention and money — our lives — trying to look, smell, and sound like the people on the screen. The news media — including and perhaps especially including social media — teaches us to abdicate our inner authority and adopt the thoughts and beliefs of the talking heads and influencers assigned to our particular algorithmic ghetto. It trains us to react with fear and anger to ideas and potential outcomes that are not sanctioned by the media priests and priestesses.

In my perspective, the central and unifying theme of all of the main social systems of control is that you are powerless and defective — you are not good enough — and you must therefore go along to get along and give up on any self-generated delusions that you could actually live a happy, healthy, and loving life just being you and doing what makes your soul sing. Forget about a bunch of us getting together in this vibration and actually changing the world into what we know it should be. Didn’t you watch those documentaries and movies about the hippies and the flower children of the 1960s. Look what happened to those gullible idiots! Give peace a chance, my ass.

And what about our physical health?

The reason I mentioned the chemtrails in the sky today is that they are symbolic to me of just how widespread and pervasive the program to poison us has become. I do not consent to the chemtrails or the HAARP/Nexrad/5G transmitters used to move the heavy metals and coal fly ash and who knows what else through the air. I do not consent to it being able to affect my health or my emotional wellbeing.

But I see it. I see the frequency patterns in the thin carpets of fake clouds. I see the planes and I see the trails spread out and cover up the blue sky. And if the minions in charge of controlling the weather can do this all over the world in plain sight and no one notices, how many other poisons might have affected us without our even knowing about it.

Childhood vaccines, even for those of us born before the 1980s childhood vaccination boom. High fructose corn syrup, seed oils, chemical concoctions masquerading as “other natural and artificial flavors,” excitotoxins, glyphosate and other pesticides laced into virtually every food item for sale at the American grocery store.

If you were a formula-fed baby, do you know how much high fructose corn syrup you ingested by the time you could start eating baby food? I remember shopping for formula for my daughter when her mom couldn’t make enough milk to feed her and the first ingredient in every commercial formula out there was corn syrup. And in almost all, if not all of them, the corn syrup content was right at 50 percent.

How about the radiation most people are swimming in all day and all night from cell phones, wifi routers, smart meters installed on the side of the house by the power company, cell towers, and more? Maybe we’ll evolve to be able to handle that much radiation and that much contact with energy being pulsed into our bodies at frequencies that are discordant to the human biology and physiology, but we’re not there yet.

I haven’t even mentioned Big Pharma or the medical industry, but most of us have been poisoned by one or both of those at some point along the path.

I don’t say any of this to cause more fear or stress. What I do hope you’ll take away from this screed is the truth. Yes, we owe it to ourselves to do the best we can to protect ourselves from the mass poisoning agenda that seems to have been ramping towards a crescendo over the last few decades. We need to stay awake and make the best choices we can make that will enable us to feel better and live healthier lives.

And we also need to be honest about how big a part was played by our own purposeful lack of self-care in bringing about whatever chronic health or wellness challenges we may be dealing with — and how much of the root cause of those challenges is due to us agreeing to incarnate into the world at a time when the entities ruling over world society have had the means and the motive to try to subjugate the human spirit and the people of Earth through a relentless campaign of systematic poisoning.

The truth will set us free. We’ve all suffered enough. We deserve better. Let’s withdraw our consent to being systematically poisoned and claim our divine birthright of vibrant health, abundant energy, and alignment with Nature.

And the truth is, you’ve been programmed from birth to blame yourself and feel less-than, unworthy, and ashamed, about who you are. Dealing with that programming is your responsibility; but it’s not your fault.